One of the hardest things about being a teacher, for me at least, is learning how to learn. Ironic, isn't it? I expect such perfection from myself, especially in the classroom, and don't give myself any breathing room.
Tonight was one of those nights. The lesson that I had prepared turned out to be much more difficult for the students than either Jake or myself had anticipated. I started holding tension, was getting frustrated with a student, started taking over the class i.e. wasn't letting Jake do anything in an attempt to gain control of the situation.
When the class ended, I let out a whoosh of a breath, and started being negative with myself.
I'm a terrible teacher.
They didn't learn anything.
How did I not anticipate that?
Why was the handout so difficult?!
I need to just let it go. There was enough information there that they will take away something, even if it's one word.
Plus, now I can prepare better for next week's class.