5.02.2012

Fears, Phobias, and Frights...

I finished reading a book about a woman with amnesia.  Upon awaking every morning, her husband was required to tell her who she was, who he was, and what her life entailed.  Once I neared the end of the book,  however, it became clear that this 'husband' was not who he seemed to be, and was using her amnesia as a way to manipulate her thoughts regarding her own life.  It was dreadfully provocative writing, and I was transported to a place I dare not dwell. 

All of us fear things.  I'm afraid of spiders, of suffocation, and of falling and hitting my head (I suppose that happened too many times when I was younger). 

One thing that absolutely frightens me is being drugged, being put into a strait jacket, and being manipulated to believe things about myself or people I know that aren't true. 

As you can see, that book hit a little too close to home for me.  I was reading in Ecclesiastes, and Solomon ends the book with this sentence:

"Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is man's all. For God will bring every work into judgment, including every secret thing, whether good or evil." -Eccl. 12:13b-14

I know that I'm human and have fears, but really, I should be fearing God the most.  He is my loving Saviour, but He is also the Creator of the universe and the Ruler over all.  He will judge us all at the end of time. Because I'm His child, obedience and love for Him should be my priority.

I need to have more than a healthy dose of fear, respect, and awe for my God.  It's a good reminder when the small fears threaten to take over.

Love,
Ashleigh

2 comments:

Singinglady said...

Just driving home from Belleville following Jojo and Nathan's school play It is very late and I have a 7:30 am appt at the hospital in the morning and then we are driving up to Orillia
Just listening to gospel music to keep us going and contemplating what response to feed back to you
However nothing was coming through
I just read one of my Dystonia contacts who is anticipating undergoing extensive surgery this month and her conclusion was as follows
"I know God is watching over me and I know I'm not afraid of anything"

I guess that struck me as as good an rely as any I could give
Lots of love from NAN xxoxox

Anita said...

that was such a good book - another great oe I just finished was The Witness by Nora Roberts