Through New Eyes...

Sometimes I find it hard to watch movies that I don't know anything about. I have stared at the DVD shelves in the library more times than I can count, and after a while I just have to pick something before I go crazy.

Last night I chose a movie called "For Coloured Girls", directed by thought-provoker Tyler Perry. Although the movie focused mostly on black women, the challenges and struggles of life do not escape women of all colours, shapes, and sizes. There were 8 women whose lives slowly intertwined throughout the course of the film, dealing with tragic losses, rape, various types of abuse, and relationship issues. It was a hard movie to watch, but really opened up my eyes to what some women go through. I felt so much compassion, and teared up a few times. Perry has a definite way of tugging at people's heart strings, as well as facing the complexities of morality.

Since the movie is based on a poem, there are quite a few moving monologues from the women. I was impressed with the depth of emotion that was tackled.

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My internet is working well tonight, so I typed this while watching a movie. Multi-tasking at it's best :)

I hope everyone has a great evening!

Love,

Ashleigh

If you are considering renting this movie, just be careful as there are some disturbing scenes of violence.

Coolest. Book. Ever.

Buy this book....do it! You won't regret it. Also, check out the authors blog where the idea for it originated.

We had the college golf tournament fundraiser on Monday, and Pearson International was kind enough to donate enough of these books to us for each golfer. So, if you don't want to buy it, just ask me if you can borrow it. I may or may not say "no" at this point, because I'm so obssessed with it. So obssessed, in fact, that I won't even tell you what it's about.

Just go and get it :)

Love,

Ashleigh

P.s. Wasn't that storm insane last night? I couldn't believe how much lightning there was!

Lots o updates...

1. I no longer work at Tim Hortons. [Praise the Lord!!]

2. I have my beloved laptop back and working, and no more floppy screen :)

3. Jake and I aren't pregnant. (hehe, couldn't resist!)

4. I've started writing my thank you cards from our wedding, and finding it surprisingly therapeutic. So if you haven't received yours yet, it's coming!

5. I have a cold. and a nasty cough. with mucous. and lots of phlegm. ya, you get the picture. but it's getting better :)

6. My feet are freezing.

7. We have a fan now! Our third floor apartment is in an incredibly old building, and we get no shade at all, so this summer is going to be HOT HOT HOT!!!

8. I've decided to learn 10 new Portuguese words a week.

9. God's been convicting me of being judgmental and critical, so I need to pray for change!

10. I am more in love with my husband than I was the day we got married. Love grows with time!

Love,

Ash

Two Years today....

I [almost] woke up to my husband serenading me on guitar with "Still the One" by Shania Twain. How romantic! He worked 7-7am, so I have no time when he's been able to practice. I thought he was sleeping while I've been at work...seems like he had other ideas!!! God has been so good to us these past two years, through our dating relationship, engagement, and now almost 7 months of marriage. Thank you, Jake, for asking me to be your girlfriend. When I said "yes", I had no idea what I was getting into. I didn't even really know you all that well. I didn't even know whether you were a romantic or not! It was definitely a leap of faith, this relationship that I was willing to jump into, trusting that God would bless us.

It's too bad he's working again tonight, but we will celebrate tomorrow night. We'll probably end up going to the fireworks in the park.

It seems as if these two months have been filled with "a-versaries"...

-Apr. 22 marked one year since our engagement, as well as two years since I was released from the hospital

-Apr. 30 marked our 6 months of marriage, and my graduation from college

-May 22 marked our two years of relationship

So many things to thank God for :)

Also, my sister has an exciting occasion coming up...on June 5th she and Nathanael will have been married for one year!!!! Not to mention in a few months they will be proud parents. How time flies! Congrats you two!!

Love,

Ashleigh

Rain, rain, go away...

Almost two months? Really? Where has the time gone?

I feel like I have been in some sort of time warp (and I'm not talking the Rocky Horror Picture Show).

Since my last blog I have graduated college and started teaching ESL with a Korean minstry for the summer.

Let's say that again. I graduated. I accomplished a huge goal. I made it through. And that was definitely not without the strength and grace of our loving Heavenly Father, and the support of my dear husband, Jake. Many others, including my parents, have been an encouragement along the way. I almost didn't go back for my second year, and here I am, with a diploma of BRE under my belt. God is definitely a God of love.

The teaching has been going well. We're on the second week now, and both myself and Arleen are teaching one class. We only have four students, so it makes the workload a lot easier. Since I did this last year as well, it's nice to have some notes and useful tips to make things run more smoothly. Some of the exciting activities we have planned for the students are a trip to a clay and glass gallery, visiting a donkey farm, and ice skating at the local arena. I hope they will enjoy their time here. They have been staying in Toronto, and find it a little bit boring. (I can't imagine what they think of this place!)

In other news, it seems as if the rain will not let up. I am looking forward to feeling the warmth of the suns rays upon my skin once more. I went to Canada's Wonderland with Missy et al two Sundays ago and my face got burned. Well, that's long since gone. We have been spoiled, only to be blasted by the icy frigidity of the bitter winter winds once more.

I long for travel, and adventure. And my Jake needs to get out of the factory he feels so trapped in. Please pray that God will show us our next steps, and that on our way, we won't lose sight of the ministry opportunities around us.

Love,
Ashleigh

Recipe Books...

Many people gave us recipe books as wedding gifts. I think that's kind of a standard thing to do, especially if they know you like cooking. My mom gave us quite a few, namely Company's Coming, with titles such as "Slow-Cook Recipes" or "The Potato Book". Jake and I absolutelylove the slow cook book, especially since I work so late. It comes in handy to have a nice meal ready as soon as we get in the door.

In our meal planning ventures for this week, we had deemed yesterday the "Chicken/carrot/potato" day, unsure of what we would make. Out came The Potato Book, and I checked off a few recipes that seemed interesting or if we had all the ingredients. We decided upon latkes, which, I'm told by "reliable" sources, are a Jewish treat around the time of Channukah. At first glance it looks easy-grate the potatoes, grate the onions, mix in an egg, some flour, and salt and pepper, and Voila!, a nice side to your meal.

Not if you have the world's crappiest grater. I was so frustrated, but too stubbourn to let Jake help me, even though he asked me two or three times if I wanted him to do it. No, I was gonna take the pain, make myself the martyr, beat these potatoes into submission if I had to. (It was a lame sort of determination that I need to work on, ok?)

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All suffering aside, they kinda turned out like this:

MMMMM, fried deliciousness. Yes, they were worth all the effort. Jake and I enjoyed a delicious meal after all (especially the chicken with shawarma sauce that he made).

Love,

Ashleigh

Onward and Upward to Graduation...

Well, it's coming. I have no excuses. I'm graduating in 37 days. The pressure is on!!

My assistant manager loves me so much. I couldn't believe my eyes when I looked at the schedule for the next two weeks, and I have five days off in a row!!! I don't have to go back to work until Monday. I am thinking of getting her a little something to thank her for giving me prime shifts.

I am starting to get a little guilty for not doing more homework this morning, but the allergies are acting up again, and it's been a bit of a rough start. My eyes felt so good yesterday that I even put my contacts in; when I took them out last night, the burning started, and they were so dried out. It's hard to know how to gauge them. I suppose I should just bask in the good feelings when they come.

Plus, taking a slow morning to read the Bible, drink tea, eat some blueberry-infused oatmeal, and write a blog never hurt anyone :)

Thanks for your prayers- keep them coming!!! I can't wait to be finished, and it's only by God's strength and His grace that I will make it. Ain't it so, ain't it so.

One more thing- this verse made me happy this morning, so I'll share it with you:

" 'You must not fear them, for the LORD your God Himself fights for you.' "

-Deuteronomy 3:22

Moses was talking to Joshua about conquering the nations surrounding Israel. I just like how it depicts God as a mighty warrior on our behalf, which He is. Praise Him.

Love,

Ashleigh

For Your Contemplation...

I thought these pictures deserved their own posts. Just consider how true both of these statements are, and then you'll realize why music is so influential on the youth of today.

These pictures actually break my heart. I have heard many people say to me that they don't listen to the lyrics, just the music. Despite their claims, the lyrics dig in and make a home in their subconscious, making them believe just about anything. Let's pray for the young, naive, and innocent that are being deceived and led astray through many of the songs today. May God use us to reach them when they're at their neediest.

Love,

Ashleigh

Name That Tune...

How does being culturally relevant translate to Christianity? I'm struggling with this a lot at work right now. I love listening to pop music. I know all the lyrics, artists, and videos. The people I work with are mostly teens aged 16-19, and are obviously very enculturated. I find that talking to them at their level can be difficult, but it's easy if you find the topic they all know well-music. Be it pop, rock, or any 80's song, they're hooked-literally. So many people are plugged into their iPods or MP3 players, but the majority are high school kids. When I'm at work, searching for some way to get these oft angry and belligerent teens to talk to me, I bring up music:

"So, what do you think of Ke$ha's new music video?"

"Hey, have you heard that new song by Lady Gaga?"

"Wow, doesn't that "Papa Americano" song have such a catchy beat?" (seriously, though, watch this one... it's cute :)

Sometimes their faces light right up, or else they'll tell me they think animated unicorns are strange.*

Regardless of how easy this is, I come back to the main question.

Is it ok to be culturally relevant despite all the crap that's out there?

Sometimes I wonder how else I can build rapport with them. In an age where open theism is so rampant, it can't be that hard to bring up religion and Christianity, to start a convo on Jesus. In fact, I have had the chance to ask one girl, Sally**, about what her thoughts are on the spiritual realm (God, angels, etc.). Now that we've talked about that once, how do I bring it up again? How can I relate the truth of the Gospel to someone who watches "Paranormal Activity" for fun?

I'm just thankful that, when an opportunity arises (i.e. when we're not busting our butts to get through 30 cars in the drive-thru) that the Holy Spirit within me will carefully articulate my words so that they understand in a way that is culturally relevant. I mean, wasn't Jesus? He used parables and stories that fit His time period, and taught lessons in ways the masses would be able to relate to (but perhaps they were not meant to understand-Luke 8:9,10- only God can open the ears and hearts of people to understand the deep "mysteries of the kingdom").

The danger is this: I don't want to be so "in the know" that they think I'm one of them. Which is why I am having this struggle. I alluded to it earlier, but can I talk about the music of today in a detached way? How does that even work? See, I want them to know that I care, but don't want them to think I'm part of their culture.

But how can I not become part of it if I expose myself to it to frequently? Listening to the radio doesn't affect me as much, but I have found in that past that watching certain music videos can lower my self-esteem, cause me to loathe my physical body, and incite me to have some form of spiritual disconnect with God. It's a slippery slope to go looking for the hits.***

In conclusion, I do believe it helps to be culturally relevant and to find the common denominator, but what price are we willing to pay? And if we don't ever talk about Jesus with them, then was it worth it at all?

Love,

Ashleigh

[Author's Note: This blog is an excerpt from my journal today, and for a little more insight into my thoughts, here is the prayer I wrote afterwards: Dear Lord, please guide me. I'm so lost in this desire for acceptance that wars with my need to share the Good News. Please give me a passion to share; stir up the Spirit within me. Help me to know where to connect the dots, and when to speak (especially what to say). I have so much fear of rejection, Father! Help me to look to you for wisdom and strength.]

*Ke$ha's new music video has unicorns in it. That are animated and wearing suits. It's just plain weird.

**Name changed for security reasons

***Please don't read into this. I am not for a moment suggesting that all the hits are bad, nor am I condoning them either. In my own Christian walk I have had to work through what is neutral and what is clearly and blatantly evil. Perhaps you are still working through that yourself. My intention is not to offend anyone, but rather to get us thinking critically as Christians should.

The Luckiest of all Charms...

Have you ever eaten the cereal "Lucky Charms" guilt-free? I haven't. When I was little, I wasn't allowed to eat them, for two reasons. One, because of the name. Two, because they're a "sugary cereal without any nutrition". My husband, on the other hand, LOVES these kinds of cereal, and will down two bowls without the blink of an eye.

When shopping at food basics the other night, we saw the family sized Lucky Charms on sale for half price. With a wistful look and a shy smile, Jake looked at me and said, "Do you mind if I get some?" "Of course not," said I, knowing he was as happy as a clam.

The next day (yesterday), I was hankering for something sweet to eat, that didn't require much assembly. Next thing I know, my eyes wandered up to the cereal cupboard, remembering those Lucky Charms (they're a nice little snack). Today, however, I got up the courage to have a bowl. For breakfast. I'm finishing it off as we speak, relishing the taste of those colourful little marshmallows, knowing that all the discussions about healthy breakfasts just swirled down my esophagus along with the sugary milk. I think, for the time being, my guilt has been partially absolved.

Love,

Ashleigh